Wow! 2012 has just flown by! As I sit here and reflect on this year for me, I think of it as a year full of learning experiences.
At the beginning of 2012, we welcomed our sweet Sariah. She couldn’t be a more pleasant baby and we just love her to pieces! With her birth, we became a family of five. To be honest, this adjustment was difficult for me. I was now out numbered and it was very hard for me to handle and adjust to our new life. I felt like I was being pulled in so many directions that I was going to be ripped apart. I struggled in feeling like I was a good mom and wife and began to be very much overwhelmed. I also was struggling with some other inner struggles which was making me feel angry, selfish, envious, and not close to my Savior. I was in a dark place…
But out of the darkness came a light, a tender mercy, a sweet friend. She helped anchor me and bring me back to my Savior. She helped me to re-recognize in myself qualities and abilities that I overlooked or forgotten I had. She also allowed me to serve her. We were able to answer each others prayers. The Lord truly hears our prayers and sends us tender mercies to help us get through whatever we may be going through at the time.
Mark also was such a strong support. He is so patient with me and I feel that our love has grown more this year as He helped me begin to overcome my struggles. Out of these struggles, I have learned that I am a much stronger person that I was before and my heart has been turned more towards my Savior! I’m grateful that He loves me so much to give me trials that I might draw closer to Him and rely on Him for help. I’m thankful that I have such wonderful people in my life who have helped me.
I have set some goals for 2013 of studying the scriptures each day and to write what I am grateful for each day. I also have been looking for opportunities to serve my fellow men. Service is the key! I have also decided that I am not going to waste anymore days to being sad or angry or just unhappy. The past is in the past and for our experience. On to the present and looking forward to the future! I can honestly say that because of my determination to change, I am now HAPPY and CONFIDENT! Life is GOOD!! And I look forward to learning more about my self and I know that with the help of my Heavenly Father and Savior, I will be able to reach my full potential! Here’s to 2013!!!